fuck.

I got away with not eating yesterday. I wanted to vary my intake, keep my metabolism crazy confused, I was doing so well:

1 wetabix - 64 kcals.
1 cup steamed veg - 45 kcals
50g mushrooms - 7kcals
2 egg whites - 130 kcals

I was planning something healthy and small for dinner. My parents have other ideas. I got away with not eating yesterday because I told them I wasn't feeling well. Today - they are making me eat chinese food.

I actually want to cry. I can't eat that crap. I know it's going to make me fat again in the morning. Ergh, just when everything was looking up. I can't even get it out because it's spicy and it burns like one mother fucker. I tried before.

Door bell just went.

Just kill me now. Hell is here.